Strength to Make My Move

The other day, was walking at a park. Dimly lighted at most park. This was a park that can be use as shortcut route to my destination, in my mind (I am not sure whether can this lead to my destination at all, just a hunch). As the other two alternative route; safe route will take up a longer time to reach but longest route while the fastest route is dangerous as it requires walking along the highway with pavement to walk but this is the shortest route.

Thus, I took the shortcut route not knowing where the path will leads me. I took it anyway and kept walking forward. There are thoughts in my head telling me to turn back and take the safer route or the dangerous route as both are confirmed 100% will lead me to the destination.

Hesitation, doubts and fears are all around me as I walked deeper into the darkness with little light from the park lamps covered by the trees. I did not give in and kept moving till I saw the open area or the entrance to the park closest to the destination I am going to.

This short 10 minutes walk had made me realized that I should have hesitation, doubts and fears around me to give me strength not as hindrance for me to achieve what I wanted to achieve.

It's time to make my move.

Depression?

Out of nowhere, there is this feeling that struck me yesterday and it lingers on till now. The feeling of pathetic, uselessness, and all pessimistic thoughts had overtaken me.

No, I did not have a bad day at work, no argument with anyone at all, not involved in any accident/s or mishap.

The feelings is just not right at all... can't concentrate, can't be happy, can't laugh it out, can't even shake it out with a sleep.

Read some articles online regards to health issues, then came to the topic; depression. Does have all the symptoms stated that reflect what I am enduring now. OMG... Is this for real? Hard to say as I don't have the tendency to commit suicide yet. (Haha)

Oh well, I restarted writing in this blog again. Maybe I just need to express myself, my thoughts, my dilemmas, my dreams, my souls onto a platform. Not to show off or to get attention. A diary of mine.

Gotta smile and live life through with HAPPY thoughts. That might help to cure it! Maybe will get LGZ to go Snowflake... the dessert that always get me in better mood, tonight.

After reading back some of my backdated post; here is to update the phone that I am using:

After ditching X6, I went for Samsung Galaxy Ace.

Samsung Galaxy Ace

Then changes to Samsung Galaxy SII (Current)

           

                Samsung Galaxy SII

         















Well that's the update there. I do feel a little better now after spilling some juice out here. I guess I will need to start writing to express myself !!

Cheers,

Losing Focus

It's hard to make me focus these days... oh wait... It seems its more of an on-going thing for me. I do loose interest or should I say that I over grown my interest and focus too much on something too soon that it backfire to me as it makes me tired of it easily. Okay, that's say it all.

I don't know if it is a good thing or not. The only thing I know is, I am not happy the way it is going. 

On the way to work these few days, I don't turn on the radio or the player. I was just driving... listening to the sound of my beloved first transport... It's rather soothing to hear the rev of the car engine. I know it's working hard to transport me everyday to work and back. Yesterday, after finish listening to the modulator, while I was switching back to the FM radio, I came across the AM frequency station. I browse through the search and there are two station on air. However I have no idea what the heck were they talking about. It seems to be either in Thai language or Vietnamese?? No idea at all but it was fun. haha (I'm going crazy it seems....) . I also notice one thing, when I rev the engine, the frequency do goes with the revving of the  engine... weird but true... haha

Proton Saga: (My first beloved transportation)