It's a New Blogging session restart

It's been quite sometime ago that I logged in and started tying away my thoughts in a BLOG. What do I get when I turn my Blog page. I got 30 comments... all is spam or bot related comments. Blogger website should let me mark all and delete them all at once. Instead, I had to go through all the hassle to delete them one by one... which took me about half an hour to do so. ~Sigh~

So what is new with my life these days? Well, my addiction to mobile phones continue. Got myself a Nokia X6 8GB on last Saturday. This is what my phone looks like: (on the right). This is a good to touch and feel phone. Plus it is in BLUE (my favourite colour). 

Actually I started out my journey to Sg Wang in search for Sony Ericsson's new android phone: X10 Mini or Mini Pro. These two really capture my attention with the sleek and small and compact size. (Image below: X10 Mini Pro[left] & X10 Mini [right]).

Besides these two, I also have my eyes on Sony Ericssson Vivaz (left), HTC Wildfire (center) and Nokia C6 (right). The first can record video in HD... after a long thought, it's better to get a Video Camera... The second is from HTC, which sure has no problem with. However don't really like the interface it has... The latter, has a not so solid or comfortable feel especially the crack between the QWERTY keyboard and the screen. That's the only flaw for C6.

Oh my G, I have to admit. I am truly a super wasting money in the Mobile Phone area. Hahaha... 

Just to recap:

First: SE K300 (still with me, still can be operated, with lil malfunction on the joystick)

Second: SE W800 (My first and only walkman phone) RIP~cause: Drowned

Third: SE K550 (My first so-call Cybershot phone) RIP~cause: Kidnapped, never found

Fourth: SE Z710i (My first flip phone, still funtional, battery life unstable)

Fifth: SE G900i (My first touch screen / keypad phone, nothing great) Traded

Sixth: SE U100 Yari (My first slider phone, fun at first, slide is not a thing in long run) Traded

Seventh: Nokia X6 8GB (My first Nokia Phone and also my first FULL touch screen phone, enjoying it so far beside the WIFI problem I had earlier on) 

Life is that simple or is it complicated?

When I was younger, I thought that grown up have all the fun going here and there, working seems so fun as they get money. Things do look differently when I had grown up and started working. Sure it's fun at times, but work is work. It's never a real pleasure unless your the Boss. Sure I get money for what I do, but the money is hard earn reward for self. Used some here and there save up here, spend it there, pay here and there.

So it's a tough real world out there. Sometimes I wish I take back my wishes and hopes to grow up faster so that I could enjoy the moment of youth and childhood.

Other thing that messed up my life now is TIME, it's seemed that it's a little harder to handle time than money. Once time had slipped it slipped away forever and there is no way of finding the TIME back. Unlike money which can be earned thtough hard work. One day 24 hour don't really seemed enough... 7 days do sound long, but it's real short. 

Everything seems to be so... unsatisfied in my life now. I couldn't be there for anyone anymore. The time spent with loved ones are not enough as well. Is this what I had looked for before this? I don't recall of this. I wish to really manage my life back to a more productive self than one that only knows how to be depressed and complaining. I need actions not just whinning around. 

1) to save up as much money as I could. 

2) spend more time with loved ones.

3) excercise more

4) built up more confidence.

Haywire

Wow... it's sure a mad mad world out there to work in. Way too crazy. I need to adapt but I don't think I am adapting quick enough as I'm still hurting...  Is it myself who had overestimate my capability and also underestimate the load. Communication is vital yet it's hard to reach out to others that deny the rights to work together. 

While I am complaining here there goes another brick down the pond. I wonder over the times if this is meant to be or it's just too much for me to work it out. I wonder and ponder on. Maybe I am incompetent at all cases. Wow, how sorrowful this feels.

Why am I always feel this way. Maybe it's the surrounding where I am not suppose to belong is playing a big part here.  Guess I just can't complain that much now.  Got to  head on this road with courage and the willingness to overcome my fears and problems. Hopefully in time, I could be competent enough to withhold my head up high. 

On a happier note... there is no happier note now.