Haywire

Wow... it's sure a mad mad world out there to work in. Way too crazy. I need to adapt but I don't think I am adapting quick enough as I'm still hurting...  Is it myself who had overestimate my capability and also underestimate the load. Communication is vital yet it's hard to reach out to others that deny the rights to work together. 

While I am complaining here there goes another brick down the pond. I wonder over the times if this is meant to be or it's just too much for me to work it out. I wonder and ponder on. Maybe I am incompetent at all cases. Wow, how sorrowful this feels.

Why am I always feel this way. Maybe it's the surrounding where I am not suppose to belong is playing a big part here.  Guess I just can't complain that much now.  Got to  head on this road with courage and the willingness to overcome my fears and problems. Hopefully in time, I could be competent enough to withhold my head up high. 

On a happier note... there is no happier note now.