Losing Focus

It's hard to make me focus these days... oh wait... It seems its more of an on-going thing for me. I do loose interest or should I say that I over grown my interest and focus too much on something too soon that it backfire to me as it makes me tired of it easily. Okay, that's say it all.

I don't know if it is a good thing or not. The only thing I know is, I am not happy the way it is going. 

On the way to work these few days, I don't turn on the radio or the player. I was just driving... listening to the sound of my beloved first transport... It's rather soothing to hear the rev of the car engine. I know it's working hard to transport me everyday to work and back. Yesterday, after finish listening to the modulator, while I was switching back to the FM radio, I came across the AM frequency station. I browse through the search and there are two station on air. However I have no idea what the heck were they talking about. It seems to be either in Thai language or Vietnamese?? No idea at all but it was fun. haha (I'm going crazy it seems....) . I also notice one thing, when I rev the engine, the frequency do goes with the revving of the  engine... weird but true... haha

Proton Saga: (My first beloved transportation)

It's a New Blogging session restart

It's been quite sometime ago that I logged in and started tying away my thoughts in a BLOG. What do I get when I turn my Blog page. I got 30 comments... all is spam or bot related comments. Blogger website should let me mark all and delete them all at once. Instead, I had to go through all the hassle to delete them one by one... which took me about half an hour to do so. ~Sigh~

So what is new with my life these days? Well, my addiction to mobile phones continue. Got myself a Nokia X6 8GB on last Saturday. This is what my phone looks like: (on the right). This is a good to touch and feel phone. Plus it is in BLUE (my favourite colour). 

Actually I started out my journey to Sg Wang in search for Sony Ericsson's new android phone: X10 Mini or Mini Pro. These two really capture my attention with the sleek and small and compact size. (Image below: X10 Mini Pro[left] & X10 Mini [right]).

Besides these two, I also have my eyes on Sony Ericssson Vivaz (left), HTC Wildfire (center) and Nokia C6 (right). The first can record video in HD... after a long thought, it's better to get a Video Camera... The second is from HTC, which sure has no problem with. However don't really like the interface it has... The latter, has a not so solid or comfortable feel especially the crack between the QWERTY keyboard and the screen. That's the only flaw for C6.

Oh my G, I have to admit. I am truly a super wasting money in the Mobile Phone area. Hahaha... 

Just to recap:

First: SE K300 (still with me, still can be operated, with lil malfunction on the joystick)

Second: SE W800 (My first and only walkman phone) RIP~cause: Drowned

Third: SE K550 (My first so-call Cybershot phone) RIP~cause: Kidnapped, never found

Fourth: SE Z710i (My first flip phone, still funtional, battery life unstable)

Fifth: SE G900i (My first touch screen / keypad phone, nothing great) Traded

Sixth: SE U100 Yari (My first slider phone, fun at first, slide is not a thing in long run) Traded

Seventh: Nokia X6 8GB (My first Nokia Phone and also my first FULL touch screen phone, enjoying it so far beside the WIFI problem I had earlier on) 

Life is that simple or is it complicated?

When I was younger, I thought that grown up have all the fun going here and there, working seems so fun as they get money. Things do look differently when I had grown up and started working. Sure it's fun at times, but work is work. It's never a real pleasure unless your the Boss. Sure I get money for what I do, but the money is hard earn reward for self. Used some here and there save up here, spend it there, pay here and there.

So it's a tough real world out there. Sometimes I wish I take back my wishes and hopes to grow up faster so that I could enjoy the moment of youth and childhood.

Other thing that messed up my life now is TIME, it's seemed that it's a little harder to handle time than money. Once time had slipped it slipped away forever and there is no way of finding the TIME back. Unlike money which can be earned thtough hard work. One day 24 hour don't really seemed enough... 7 days do sound long, but it's real short. 

Everything seems to be so... unsatisfied in my life now. I couldn't be there for anyone anymore. The time spent with loved ones are not enough as well. Is this what I had looked for before this? I don't recall of this. I wish to really manage my life back to a more productive self than one that only knows how to be depressed and complaining. I need actions not just whinning around. 

1) to save up as much money as I could. 

2) spend more time with loved ones.

3) excercise more

4) built up more confidence.